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Sunday, August 25, 2019

2 weeks on the surface of the sun



We have lived in St George Utah for just over 2 weeks and haven't spontaneously combusted.  The heat does bring out a new level of cranky for me, something I will require much effort and divine assistance to overcome.  There have been some high points, like Eliza going on a real date Friday night, finding a rec center to get our energy out, going shopping with Mom and my happy job.  There have been some low points like realizing we need to take on Wilson again, battling with Marcos over needs vs wants, and sleepless nights worrying about what friends and activities Max is choosing.  The biggest hard is being apart from Tony, although it has allowed me to focus a lot of attention on the kids.  I have become keenly aware how much the kids need their Dad for emotional support and attention.  Marcos talked to him for 40 minutes Friday night and we had to cut him off! 

We have decided to attend the ward where the new house is and I'm trusting that it is the place where we are needed and where we need to be.  It seems very affluent and I struggle trying not to judge.  I'm 47 years old and know that everyone has hard or will have hard.  Someone needs me here.  If I prematurely decide who it isn't, I won't know who it is. 

As a particularly special treat, Amy and Audrey came down on Saturday night.  It was so fun to see them and to just relax for a night.  We ate at Viva Chicken, hiked Dixie rock, toured the temple and visited Wilson.  Audrey and Amy make our family feel safe, like you can't do or say the wrong thing.   I think this is their spiritual gift.

We have made an offer on a house.  It is an expensive house, that we hope turns out to be a good investment.  It needs blinds, a yard, furniture.  I'm trying hard not to get overwhelmed.  It's just a house.  This will be an opportunity to exercise a lot of faith and trust and stay true to my desire for simplicity.  Nothing about the neighborhood says simplicity.  Nothing about the entire city of St George says simplicity or minimalism.  Except the temple.  The temple is my happy place.  Especially the cafeteria.

Tuesday, August 13, 2019

Happy Birthday Max

Dear Maxwell,
Today you turned 15 and started a new school, in a new city in a new place.  This birthday marks an entirely fresh start for you.  I can only imagine how hard it is and how much anxiety you must feel.  I do know that it kept you from going to church on Sunday, a lost phone privilege,  and resulted in some damage to the rental house.  The damage will need to be fixed, but it doesn't change how much Dad and I love you and how much potential we see in you.  We love watching your personality emerge and how you are asserting your individuality through your sick rap music and drip.

I learned this birthday that Heavenly Father is a way better birthday planner than I am.  I really turned everything over to him on the morning of your birthday and then just tried to follow the promptings he gave.  Heavenly Father arranged for you to meet two new friends, go play basketball at the rec center, ride scooters all over town and Panda Express at 10:00 at night.  You were in heaven.  Eliza and Marcos even got you donuts.

I love you so much.  I'm proud of you and pray every day that you can see how much God loves you and what great things he has planned for you. 

Love, Mom

Sunday, August 11, 2019

Deliberate disruption

We did it.  We uprooted our family after 19 years in St John to move to a place as opposite in landscape, people and stimulus as possible.  The reality has not set in, and neither have the emotions.  We are just in business mode trying to get everything done to start our new life.

I've felt like the kid at the fair that has been riding her favorite ride and the carnie is telling her to get off and give someone else a turn.  Like the kid, I just can't imagine that there are other great rides at the fair.  I'm so enamored with the one I was just one.  I know we are supposed to do this, but not one cell in my body wants to disrupt everything we worked so hard for.

What makes this move doable is the sure knowledge that Dr Pete and Melissa are coming.  The Hello/Goodby party was a great success and everyone fell in love with them.  I din't get the house as clean as I'd have liked, but I feel pretty good about what I left them.  The thing that made me so happy was that they have the mantle from Pete's childhood home that they would like to install in the living room.  It was one of the projects we never got done and I'm so glad they will do it.  The town is in good hands with Dr Pete.

It was good to have a full week to pack and prepare.  We loaded up on Monday night with the help of Dale and especially Jake and spent Tuesday enjoying our last day.  Denise Larsen brought us a picnic dinner which we ate for the last time on our porch and then we loaded in the truck and headed out of town.  I cried hard.

We stayed in Missoula that night and were off the next morning for Orem.  It was an uneventful trip, thankfully, and we spent a nice evening with Debbie and the kids.  On Thursday we arrived in St George a little after 1:00.  We went straight to Mom and Dad Rippy's where we unloaded their stuff, then went to our rental house and unloaded our stuff.  Then we had a big, greasy burger, fries and a milkshake, which we regretted immediately.  On Friday we spent the day unpacking a few things, registering the kids for school, and doing work stuff.  That night we had dinner at Uncle Rays and saw Wilson for the first time.  It's always hard to see Wilson when he is at the bottom of his cycle, but everyone was on their best behavior.  Saturday Tony and I went to Hurricane to buy a car.  Tony was totally inspired because it has been a life saver to have. 

Sunday we went to church in the rental ward and drove around looking at houses and trying to get inspiration.  We knew we would need it in our 4 hours with the realtor on Monday morning.  After dropping off the Jetta for a repair, we visited 5 houses.  Four were beautiful, big houses.  1 was a smaller house.  For investment  purposes it has a lot going for it:   High ceilings, beautiful finish work, new, giant RV garage, one level, super nice neighborhood.   It also has no yard :(  We are moving forward in faith.  Our choices seem limited because of the school district and I just keep reminding myself that it only has to be for 6 years. 

We said goodbye to Tony and he headed to the airport on the shuttle to wrap things up in St John and join us in 3 weeks.  We weren't meant to be apart, but I'm so thankful we are both healthy and capable to do this.