On Christmas Eve I read a moving talk by Elder Holland given in 1976. In the talk he discusses how mixed up and wrong the first Christmas must have appeared. Two teenagers, far away from home, in a dirty barn, shepherds coming to gawk. That is not how it should have looked in preparation for the Savior of the world to come. Elder Holland articulated my problem. I have an idea of how Christmas should look, how my family should look. Then I feel resentful and disappointed when my life more resembles the dirty barn. This Christmas was no exception. My carefully purchased, matching Christmas Church ties went unused for my oldest two boys. Wilson wasn’t present for any of the family gatherings. Cooper dropped the fbomb on me in a spew of verbal vomit hours before our Rippy family Christmas dinner. Christmas was pocked with contention, ingratitude and confusion. It’s not the way I thought it should look. Here was the reality:
The scriptures do not record Mary and Joseph complaining. In fact, Mary’s response to the angel was totally faithful, accepting and humble. As an avid anticipator and planner I must figure out a way to accept how things turn out without attaching expectation. The greatest event in history didn’t look right, but it was right. It didn’t look perfect, but it was. The same could be said for the Lundberg Christmas.
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Tuesday, December 26, 2017
Sunday, December 17, 2017
Gratitude
On Thursday night I texted Cooper goodnight and reminded him to lock up when he got home from a party with his friends. The thought came to me that Cooper would be at a party with drinking. I considered asking him to come home, but new he was 18 and it was no longer my responsibility. We got a call at 7:00 on Friday morning. Cooper was in the ER and had been in an accident. He had driven home a friend who was drunk. Another friend came to pick him up to take him home. Cooper argued with the friend to let him drive, but ultimately gave in. That was the last thing he remembers. Coop walked in the cold for an hour before finding a house and asking for directions to the highway. He thought he had been in a fight because he was all bloody and bruised. The lady who deliver the newspaper found the driver and the police found Cooper shortly thereafter. They were taken by ambulance to the ER. Coop had a severe concussion and a compression fracture of T5 in his back. The driver miraculously had no broken bones. The car was totaled. Both of them should not have survived.
This is the third life threatening accident Cooper has had. It seems very obvious to Tony and I that Heavenly Father has a great plan for Cooper yet in his life. Our prayer is that Coop will know this too. Tony said we are not going to talk about lessons, regrets, woulda- shouldas. We are just going to focus on gratitude. Gratitude that Cooper’s life was preserved, that the driver has an opportunity to address alcoholism without terrible consequences, that we aren’t planning a funeral at Christmas.
This is the third life threatening accident Cooper has had. It seems very obvious to Tony and I that Heavenly Father has a great plan for Cooper yet in his life. Our prayer is that Coop will know this too. Tony said we are not going to talk about lessons, regrets, woulda- shouldas. We are just going to focus on gratitude. Gratitude that Cooper’s life was preserved, that the driver has an opportunity to address alcoholism without terrible consequences, that we aren’t planning a funeral at Christmas.
Friday, December 8, 2017
Happy Birthday Marcos
when everyone else is gone, it’s you we get to end with.
Sunday, November 12, 2017
Joy Journey
We ran away from home this weekend. It was a mental health check for Tony and what I termed a joy journey. We started on Thursday with plates of taquitos hand off we went!
First stop was the temple. Thanks to our cousin Livia, we did family name baptisms at the Portland temple. Afterward we went for dinner at Max's favorite: a steak house. It was worth it to see Max's "steak dance." We checked into our hotel room and went for a swim.
The next morning we stopped by McMinnville to see James grave. It was beautiful and peaceful.
Cheers! at Tillamook
We visited the Tillamook National Forest and loved it! We can't wait to go back and do some hiking.
Tony Max and Marcos lived the dream and went to an NBA game. Trailblazers lost to the Nets in the last few seconds. The game was awesome, but the price of popcorn was exorbitant.
We climbed the dunes at Pacific City. It was windy, but we've been in worse weather.
Sunday, October 22, 2017
Sunday, October 8, 2017
Happy 46!
I love birthdays. I'm 46 years old. Hard things have happened. Good things have happened. I have an amazing husband and a good life. I have beautiful friends. I have supportive family. I know God lives and loves me. And I have pumpkin pie.
Dad took Kimball and I on a kayak trip for our birthdays. It was an absolutely perfect day on the river with two of my favorite people.
Only Tony wraps gifts in blue "chucks pads." I was pretty excited about the new iPad though.
Friday, September 29, 2017
labor day, smokey day
We wrapped up summer with a day at Couer d lane lake with Hainsworths. It was oddly hazy from all the smoke, but relaxing just the same. Our favorite tradition of lunch at Hudsons was a highlight of the day. Summer is always hard to see end. Goodbye ice cream, peach cobbler and fresh pico de gallo. Goodbye naps in the hammock and beautiful Rock Lake.
first day!
It was a wonderful day spent moving Coop into his dorm and watching him adult. We could not be more proud and are anxious to watch his journey.
We are also excited to see how our sophomore, 8th grader and 5th grader grow this year!
Saturday, August 26, 2017
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